Awaken From A Dream

I'm glad I got the chance to know the real you.
I was in a dream but u woke me out of my sleep and when my eyes opened
the true you was revealed
The mask had fell away and in your eyes I could see the rage
Your words spoke things I've never heard before
they weren't the kind sweet words that use to pass your lips
but bitter distasteful ones
your lips no longer seemed liked honey
but as the bees that suck on nectar
Don't know what bought this on
but I'm glad I saw it now before we grew on
I'm not the one for you
My sweet love cannot settle with bitter hatred
I need someone who can mix sweet with my sweet
because bitter does not make my heart beat that beautiful sound
the sound of love, romance and melody
oh, that oh so sweet sound
The dream had to end and I'm glad the shield was taking from my eyes
Now I can see and it's time for me to leave
Dreams can definitely cloud your vision but once you're awaken the clouds are peeled away and reality sets in
and you have no choice but to live where its real
no one can sleep forever.

A 2 Week Dream

I must have been sleep for 2 weeks because just as fast as the happiness came it went.
I thought I found true happiness and love.
I know its kinda weird to say I fell in love so quickly but that's what happened.
I've never felt a love like this or a connection so strong.
I really thought it would last, I could really see our future.
Kids, dogs and unconditional love
Just when the dream was getting good
You woke me up and ended my happiness
Now there's no more sweet phone calls, no sweet kisses and hugs
Just an answering machine with your sweet voice and facebook
oh wait I forgot u deleted me as a friend
Don't really know what went wrong since you haven't given me any answers
just silence.....
I have so many questions that will go unanswered.
What made u end my sweet dream?
What did I do to change your heart?
There's so much more I want to ask but it would be like talking to a screen
No answer.....
What do u do when u lose true love?
Do u ever think I'll slip into a dream like this again?
Will I feel happiness as intense as this?
Guess I'll find out but right now I'm sore

12 pounds smaller

This is me 12 pounds smaller. I have about 17 more pounds to lose. But so far so good..... Trying to get myself back right... Ya feel Me! lol

Continuing the Mission

During my mission I lost 15 lbs. I was going to the gym every other night, eating less. But about 2 months ago I stopped going to the gym and eating a little more. But today I worked out then went walking. I'm trying to get back on track. I've probably gained 3 pounds during that 2 month break. It's kinda hard working on how I eat. But I'm a have to work harder on that. Well this is me 12 pounds smaller..... I was going to show the new me, but photo bucket is currently down so I'll download a pic later.....

So Low

Still not happy hear
Feeling as if I'm a train with no destination
Low is the word of my life
because at this point that's what I'm feeling
I need a change
So much I want to accomplish
I can see it in the distance
But I just can't touch it
As if I'm on a street with no end
I can see a husband, kids, love, financial freedom
but it's like it'll never happen for me
All I want is happiness
but I guess that's what everyone is searching for,
some kind of happiness right
I look from left to right and I see so many people with everything I want
I try to do everything I can to make my dreams come true
But it just seems so far away
All I can do is continue to pray
and have faith that God will deliver

On a mission

I am glad to announce that I have lost 4 pounds in like a week and a half. I know you're thinking 4 pounds, dat ain't shyt but man it's better than gaining. I'm eating the same thing just less portions. I work out every other day and I only drink water. My overall goal is to lose 40 pounds. I'm on my way and happy about it. I'll probably do some salsa dancing today [at home with my workout DVD]. I wanna eventually do some pole dancing. I hear they do lessons in Coconut grove, just don't know the pricing yet. I'm so excited that I've gotten my motivation back. I really thought I wouldn't be able to go without chocolate but so far so good. Oh and this is a pic of how I wanna look [some what. Cuz I hope my ass stay the same size :-)]

DETERMINED TO BE ME AGAIN

I'm feeling pretty good. i went to the gym after work tonight. I have a huge urge to go the kitchen and eat something but i'm not going to. I've had a realization that I need to lose weight. I have even more motivation after what my boyfriends brother said about me. He thought I was a completely different person, said I looked good when he first saw me and now I look FAT :-( ....... So I know I need to lose weight. My boyfriend doesn't mind the way I look but I just feel so Disgusting. I'm so not use to being this big. I'm determined to get back to my regular size and feel like me again........ I know its going to take time and motivation but I'm willing to put in all the time I need